Posts tagged ‘community’

June 10, 2011

All lit up.

Thank you to those in my reading/writing community who recommended Mary Karr’s Lit. I gobbled it. I’m putting down a few of the lines that drenched me awake because I want to share them with you and also because I want to hold on to them long after the book is returned to the library.

Some lines from Lit by Mary Karr

On youth

What hurts so bad about youth isn’t the actual butt whippings the world delivers. It’s the stupid hopes playacting like certainties.

On love of language

Words warranted my devotion–not drugs, not boys. That’s why I clung to the myth that poetry could somehow magically still my scrambled innards.

On writing

But humming through me like a third rail was poetry, the myth that if I could shuffle the right words into the right order, I could get my story straight, I could write myself into an existence that included the company of sacred misfit poets whose pages had kept me company as a kid.

On learning

I befriended a stately Holocaust survivor who showed me you could live like an intellectual whether you were in school or not. He loaned me a translation of Dante’s Inferno, which I left on a bus one drunken night, badly lying that it was stolen–what mugger says, Hand over the Dante!

On learning to write

[Etheridge Knight] wanted me to picture a woman climbing five flights in a Harlem apartment building in summer heat, then having to go back down with armloads of garbage. He said, If you’re standing on the corner of 116th Street poeticizing, what could you possibly say to help her climb back up?

On courtship

Warren counters with “Seasons of mists and mellow fruitfulness…”  Watching his unkissed mouth shaping those plush syllables is the libidinal equivalent of a studly crooner mouthing a love song.

On attraction

Occasionally, deliciously, my foot brushes his muscled calf, which makes me go all creamy in my center like a stuffed chocolate.

On survival

Build a wall around the day and don’t look over it.

On procrastination

What happened to the poems I was going to set the world weeping with? Tomorrow!

On drinking

I took the whiskey, planning a courtesy sip. But the aroma stopped me just as my tongue touched the glass mouth. The warm silk flowered in my mouth and down my gullet, after which a little blue flame of pleasure roared back up my spine. A poof of sequins went sparkling through my middle.

On drinking in a hotel room

And why a mini-bar when a maxi-bar is clearly what’s called for?

On accepting help from someone

You’re not gonna pay me back, he said. It’s not that linear.

So many lines, sharp as arrows,  to choose from. These are just a measly handful to whet your appetite for this galloping book, this galloping life. Even though she and I share more differences than similarities, reading Lit made me feel (as Karr herself writes in the memoir about work she adores) somebody out there knew who I was even if we’d never met–or would never meet. Reading this book also made me feel, for a thimbleful of a second, that I might want to believe in prayer again. The feeling didn’t last long, but still, it counts for something.

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Today’s Poem: (click on link to read entire poem)

Morning Poem by Mary Oliver

Every morning

the world

is created…

February 28, 2011

Sex, statistics, and synchronicity.

Some websites allow their owners to see extremely detailed statistics of who visits their site, including the location of the visitor, the domain name, and how long each visit lasts. My blog only provides very basic stats including total number of views, which links get clicked, and which web searches bring readers to the blog. The stats focus on key words: the words that help readers find my blog, the links on my blog that get clicked most frequently, and the most popular posts. It all comes down to the clicks. I suppose the rationale behind this is that I will use the information to tailor my writing and pepper my posts with the words that entice readers to visit my tiny cottage in the internet woods. A witch waiting for Hansel and Gretel, and instead of luring the innocents with a candy house, readers are lured with strategically placed code words: Angelina Jolie talks about her panties!

It took me a while to understand how this works. A few posts ago, before I realized the power of certain magic words, I titled a post “Most Effective Aphrodisiacs“.  I’ve now learned that there are quite a few people out there looking for the most effective aphrodisiacs. Most of the searches that spit up a link to my blog are related to cystic fibrosis.  How many people run Google searches for “poetry you can’t live without”? I’ll bet it’s significantly fewer than the number who search for “wild and freaky spring break”, which is the search term that curiously led an unwitting soul to my laced up, literary little blog. I lure you here with promises of something wild and freaky, and then, once you’re here, I tie you to a chair and torture you with endless talk about death, poetry, and lung infection.

I think about this a lot; the trail of crumbs that lead us to that next fact of our lives, the perfect accident, the strange coincidence, the synchronicities that stand up like waving flags on the landscape of a life. On any given day, we process enormous amounts of information from many different sources: words, sounds, numbers, colors, people, places, sensations. Out of the millions of floating motes of information we filter daily, only a fraction will prick us from the inside, causing us to sit up a little straighter and pay attention. And, as it turns out, WordPress is onto something: the “clicks” matter a lot.

When something clicks inside, when something tells us “I need to know more about this person” or “I need to check this out” or “I need to see where this might take me”, it’s an internal shift in awareness that leads to possibility. It’s different elements coming together at just the right moment to create an explosion, an explosion that burns a hole onto the blank paper sheet of life as we know it, opening an entirely new universe to our view. An explosion like that is what helped me find my way to the CF community. In my next post, I’ll  talk about the explosion that led me to search for the CF community, and some of the experiences I’ve had so far exploring it. And I promise, there will be no talk of girls in catholic school uniforms.

(to be continued)

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I love a perfect accident.

Today’s Poem: (click on link to read poem in its entirety)

People Like Us by Robert Bly

There are more like us. All over the world.

There are confused people, who can’t remember..

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